In very traditional asianness, the act of parentals controlling the lives of their offspring is quite common and a major pain in the ass. I was just out in the main hall roughly 5 minutes ago, walking in on my dad and my uncle talking about my future. What did I hear? "I'm thinking of going to the phillipines with Dan and he'll go to one of the universities in Cebu" and I just stood there behind one of the pillars thinking '... Wait, isn't this my life too?'

Thus the creation of this post.

Parents do want the best for their child, but in most instances, they don't know if it is even possible to do it. Like for one; The O' Levels. I was taken away from what I hold dear to me in pursuit of academic success and a 'more recognized qualification'. A tad bit overkill Don'tcha think?

Here's the kicker; I'm to do a 2 year course within a span of 7 months, and I'm to "Focus and put in a lot of effort", and that loosely translates to "Put your social life on hold till its over". I'm sorry but my attention span is terrible as it is, and the only release I get is hanging out with my peeps after school for a bit. But noooo, its full steam ahead with the studying, learning and revision for a 'quick' 7 months. Time passes by fast yes, but its gonna be zonks doing 7 months straight of no social activity or interwebs and stuff like that. Yes people, they're thinking of taking away the interwebs from me D:

Up to a certain degree, its understandable, but they didn't have to go overkill on it. Perhaps if they can actually fathom how stressful or hard its gonna be, instead of regretting over their missed chances during their childhood on how they should've done more studying and all that shite and trying to redeem themselves through me, I'd be fine instead of being problematic and whatnot.

Now I'm talking to my mom on MSN. She's under the impression that its something mere tutoring can help me learn. All she thinks is just "You can study and listen well in classes, you'll do well". Honestly... HOW THE FUCK? Sure it makes sense when I put it just like that, but basically, for Irish peeps, think about doing the Leaving Cert in 7 months whereas all the other lads have got like, the past year and 2 months in the bag?


FUCK! I'm just soooo frustrated right now. Iono why I'm doing this through my blog, but if someone has enough balls to explain to my parents that this is a bad idea and going back to Ireland would be a better one, just, please hit me up on msn or something. I'm just feeling really helpless and powerless over my own future right now =/

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