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START -->Dan Jabbar's Profile  Create Your Badge Well I know what I've been told U gotta know just when to fold, But I can’t do this all on my own No I know, I’m no superman I’m no superman PROFILE Not simple but neither am I the wiser. I'm a hugger, everyone knows I am. Just 'that other foreigner' in Europe trying to find his way somehow, picking up a few things along the way. I love my peeps, I really do, I've been there for them, they've been there for me. I live by simple 'Eye for an Eye' rules. I'll do unto thou what thouest doeth unto me. A futile attempt at Shakespeare but worth a try. Blogging is a past time like any other, I'm an avid gamer but I try to balance it out with a fairly active social life. TWITTER Music
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Thursday, March 19, 2009
Hooray to me! *rolls up sleeves* Yay! New blog skin! And its just flippin perfect! Took me around an hour, a not very productive one at that. It seems that looking for the 'perfect' blog skin is a far greater task than looking for the right type of clothes that might fit you or your peronality, perhaps both? Yes, far greater... Its like, you're looking for something that kinda says 'Hey, its simple, clean, what you see is what you get!' when you have stuff like "Grunge rawkz!" and "High School Musical" skin's. Whats wrong with them? I can't really say why, but lets put it this way: I don't really like to be affiliated to some larger group and practically become a walking statistic to represent the groups' population/fans/members. This is just, nice, sweet, simple. Pluuuuus! A scrubs reff.! Its official, I've lost my ability to multi-task at a bigger scale. Looks like I have to take life slow now, though thats not much of an option. I've got a tech project due at the end of April, likewise with a science one. Oh how wonderfull life could be. Ever had those moments where similar scents from your past could induce a rush of nostalgia? A perfume? Rushing water? Or just the musty scents of old buildings inhabited by elderlies? Looking back, I can say this: I didn't have the perfect childhood. I bet no one did, or maybe a small lucky minority. Sure there are bumps and bruises along the way, but I turned out fairly well didn't I? I guess everything thats anything affects how a person's mindset develops as they grow. From things like music, down to minute details regarding how their room was decorated or managed. I'm pretty happy with myself at this moment, and I can safely say, I wouldn't change a thing about myself right now, personality-wise, that is. The ability to carry out rational decisions or thoughts mostly on my own is something I'd rather have than anything else. But we all have our breaking points as we're merely human. I won't say there's a god, but I will say there's a higher being, or we're just part of a much bigger plan, too caught up in our lives to see the bigger picture. Its just that simple difficulty of not 'stopping to smell the roses' that makes us regret later in life. No matter how good it was, there will always be the prime need for 'more'. Nevertheless, we're all human. Its like Oscar Schindler from that movie 'Schindler's List'. He rescued about 13,000 Jews, at the end, when the war was over, he just broke down when he looked at his assets. His car, his gold rings, even the very clothes he wore, he was willing to give them away, just for '1 more Jew'. Off topic, but I watched it recently, and it was majorly touching >.< Well heeeey, looks like I've got myself thinking again, thinking enough to blog! Good day. Really good day. Peace i tried to fly; 3:01 PM Sunday, March 15, 2009
Facebook is a very odd thing. Same goes with Friendster, Bebo, and other social networking sites. Iono, I just find it odd. Back then people did it old school, they actually went out, hung out with other people, had conversations instead of doing so via teh interwebz. Its just sooo impersonal. I know its my blog, and I choose what I do, but I apologize regarding my previous post. As Naddie said; out of all the people to know stuff, I should've known better than to keep stuff bottled inside. Its not that I want to escape it forever, I mean c'mon, its life right? But maybe just for a day... So I took the once-in-a-blue-moon midnight walk, where I have that time to think, alone, or with people I'm really comfortable being with, but only to come back at around 3-4pm the next day. I've not a clue what the fuck I was doing, but Kate called me up being unable to sleep, so we just chilled around till the next afternoon talking about God knows what. Its nice to have someone to talk to once in a while, so thanks Naddie and Kate, you guys are just pure awesomesauce yaknow? I'm better now, its just the mental block and a few other pricks pissing me off, nothing too major. Yesterday I contemplated whether to quit blogging or not, and that previous post was more or less a sorry attempt at a good bye post. I'm not good at good-bye's, its just how I am. Bleah, I'm gonna read more stuff, get the juices flowing again, then get back to blogging. I'm gonna be un-officially MIA for the mean time. If some thought just pops in my head I'll just blog it the very moment I'm able to mmkay? Otherwise, just hit me up on MSN. I'm quite retarded on conversation starters these days so do me a favor and do the work in keeping it alive, I'll try my best to do so too :) i tried to fly; 1:25 PM Thursday, March 12, 2009
Who's 'they'? No... Just no... I'm getting to the point thinking "fuck yous all". I mean c'mon, its the twenty-first fucking century, communication should be easier right? I guess not, it just got more fucking complicated. Isn't that how mankind progresses? Usually? Moving forward, right?! If you have issues with how I do things or the things I do, you tell it to me, don't get all pissy just because you think its your divine right to be pissed at me. It is? Well FUUUUCCCK YOOOOU! Mmkay?! I figured you're smart enough to know that, I thought those mind games were a thing of the past? I figured wrong. Maybe you're not who I thought you are... This side of you is just... Frustrating, and I don't want to do anything with it, or you, for a good bit of time. And OtherFeker(I'll call you that unless you want the other guys to find out), OH FUCKING PLEASE! Look, if you don't like reality, its because you're the one that let it shit, time, and time again on your face so you're looking for some other reality, a virtual one. Welcome to the real world! I doubt you will survive 5 seconds in here with that fucked up bullshit you carry around you. Be yourself, not a total dick or a suck up, or someone's lapdog. You know, it seems all I do everytime I come on, is just to e-rage for a good few minutes and I feel all better already. Things these days aren't how I wanted it to be and it just gets 'ARGH!' you know? Nothing of any meaning, just to e-rage. Perhaps I blame the lack of music due to an unfortunate melting accident. I am now broke, and music-less. I seriously can't think straight! I'm not happy! Nor am I peppy though I try really hard to be for the sake of my other peeps. Ugh... Head is just in a mess, and I don't like where this is going. I have a tenner now. What I'm contemplating: 'Should I head into that corner shop, buy a pack of fags, and ration them out, or buy a pair of crappy headphones and knock back a can or two just to see if that extra buzz might make the sound quality better. It works for girls, who knows it might work with music too, right?!'. Even thoughts like 'I need new fucking friends' entered my mind. I'm the guy you lest expect to throw away a friendship without working on it first before saying 'Know what? This isn't working out is it...'. But now, I TRULY MEAN IT. Maybe it is better to have a much smaller group of friends. You don't have to worry whether you're leaving one of them out by accident and them bitching at you for doing so no matter how good your intentions are. Hey dickwad! I'm only human! Suck it! Alright?! Hey, my birthday is coming up, and I'm 16. Hooray(?). The older you get, the wiser. Perhaps? Yeah... These past few years I've learned more shit than I ever have in my entire life. The Big Man Upstairs works in mysterious ways... He has a good sense of humor too I might add. But I've learned to treat every wrong turn as just a detour from your main path. You pick stuff up along the way to help you in your main journey. For the people that keep asking me what I want, here: I just want to be left alone for the entire day. No, I'm not being emo, I just wanna escape all the crazy-ness and all trials and tribulations of everyday life. Maybe just a few of you guys that I'd rather spend my time with than anyone else in the world. Oh wait! I forgot! Most are more than ten-thousand miles away... Grreeat... Just be glad someone gives a flying fuck once in a while mmkay? i tried to fly; 3:06 PM |
