So far I'm actually having a good start in turning over a new leaf. No cigs, no alcohol(well a slight sip yesterday, I try to limit myself greatly), and I've been going out more, thats a good sign right?

Naddie, I'll blog mmmkay? Here goes, to you.

Usually when people are worried about you, its just too much. Always is because at times its uncalled for, and usually it would be over-protective, thus adding to the feeling of annoyance. For one, they've gone through it themselves, seen others going down that path. To every action, there's a consequence, cheesy line, but it does ring true, and retribution or reward will be carried out according to whatever you do. I do know that little work from time to time is just fucked up, but its better avoiding any more shit from your parents. At this moment you're thinking "Pssh, easier said than done..." and oh how right you are, but think about it this way: The shit you're going through right now, will the extra things you'll be doing worth it? Worth avoiding crap from your rents? From personal experience, my parents really annoy the living shit out of me, and during those worry discussions, it really pisses me off, but they're just being them. The beauty about it, is they're there when you need them, but also they're there when you don't. My dad is talking to me as I write and I can say, I'm just annoyed the fuck out right now, but he's there nonetheless, so I might as well make it worth his while, as they say, its the thought that counts right? Give it a bit of thought, but not too much thought or you'll end up like me: Fucking cynical... Trust me on this. Sure, the time with them not bothering you is pure heavenly, but after a good while, you're gonna start to miss it.

Anywho, my opinions from here. What I don't get these days is people worried about me changing, and they even compared me to when I was a kid. Seriously?!?!?! Hell the only thing I knew when I was a kid was to eat, sleep, play... Maybe eat sand once in a while, but I didn't know much, and I was easily influenced by propaganda bullshit or anything that my parents told me. "Don't whistle at night or the ghosts will come after you" my mom used to say, and I BELIEVED THAT. Not now I do, obviously I gained more understanding about the stuff going on around me. I mean, sure, back then in the old and really narrow minded times, these were actually believed, and to the minority that knew this wasn't true, they re-enforced it nevertheless because apparently it was very effective in preventing people from doing so. Retarded? Indeed. Smart? True. Going off point there, okay, but now I've changed from being a dump innocent kid to one aware of the total shit thats going on in this world, what happens? I get chastised for pointing out the obvious, knowing stuff I "shouldn't know". I know they're trying to shield me from that or at times just ignorant, they've gotta know that its just downright inevitable, let it go...

Today went unbelievably well, I ditched school, but I knew there was gonna be a consequence to this tomorrow. Ah well, half half day, I wouldn't waste my time in school if I'm gonna be there for 2 hours.

Decided to chill around at Nick's place to chill for a really short bit, then went out to Liffey Valley, then back to Nick's again. Damn I found out how badly I sucked at Guitar Hero, I mean sure I wasn't THAT bad, but holy crap. For consolation, he had it for a really long time before I did, so that kinda makes it alright to suck. His lil bro was pretty cool xD

I really do apologize for my cynical-ness, but its just the lack of cigs and alcohol talking, give me a good while till I'm someone fine. Quitting it is like riding a bike with training wheels that can be taken off, yes installed really easily. The training wheels would be the bad shit that I put into myself that seem to make my life easier in the short term, but fucks me up completely on the long term. What happens when you take the wheels off? You will be all wobbly and fall down a good number of times, you feel like you wanna quit, but the end result is worth it. Think back then of the times when you first bought your "big boy/girl" bike, as my dad used to call it. Apply it to me situation, hope you guys understand.

At this very moment, I'm listening to a news report. A terrorist attack has been carried out in Mumbai. 80 people killed, mostly targeted Americans and other tourists. To be honest, I actually feel sorry for whoever did it. Think about it, what the hell drives people to that very extent where they have nothing else to live for. There are a really good number of factors, not countless, just a fair number that I couldn't be arsed to mention right now, well perhaps one main one: Poverty. It just fucks people over constantly. I've seen those charitable organizations, looked into them, wasn't too pleased. But I learned a few things, there are two types of aid, bilateral and multi lateral aid. Bilateral aid would be giving it directly to the government and they will distribute the money among his people who he vowed to serve, and multilateral aid, where its given to the organizations where they will do it properly. I mean,for a country thats actually requiring aid, the government must've been doing something wrong. So here's the deal with bilateral aid:
Money goes to government, prick takes a "small" cut, then it goes to different ministers and then they all take a small cut, then it goes to the people. So for every dollar you donate, the people are actually getting only 10-25 cents. Likewise with the good people who help bilateral aid, all the money they spend shipping the food, water, medical aid, and the fees for moving the money itself.

People in power these days... If I were to be given such power, I would refuse as I know at what point of power I'm capable of handling. They aren't true the the flag, they only care about offshore bank accounts.

Oh screw, I'm dying for an intelligent debate. Share like different opinions and stuff.

Anywho, I think I might head off, peace.