Having the apparent memory of a goldfish, I figured I might give writing short simple notes on my arm a shot. Sean kept grabbing my hand during business out of curiosity which lead to giving my hand an involuntary "twitch" thus "accidentally" slapping him. Mind your own business! Anywho, its working fairly well, less slacking and forgetting.

Frick! Detention next week =. =" Due to me being utterly late like loads of times. The classes I missed amounted to 1 day of school being 8 hours. Meh, take it like a man.

I'm not sure what the hell is wrong with me but I'm fatigued easily, and to top that off, I've got a slight hangover through doing shots while hanging with the guys. Apparently I've got the knack for coming to revelations while in a state of emotion either being VERY sad, or VERY happy. Well, VERY (insert emotion here) anything really.

Ever had the feeling when you wanted something SO bad, at the same time you know you can't get it, the flaws won't deter you from wanting it at all. But as soon as you have it, the flaws are just so apparent and "in your face" that you deeply regret your decision for going after it in the first place. This leads to my other revelation, things you want that badly just isn't all worth it. You may go "The hell is he talking about"? Well its like a linear equation having 2 variables thus leading to the problem solver. Well, figure it out.

There goes my head eh?

I know its so unlike me being that I don't usually reach this depth of thought evenn though I daydream a lot. Doesn't involve something serious. Maybe might be a case of self-denial and not wanting to face my troubles.
I think giving advice to one's self is like trying to cut your own hair. It doesn't work, and ends up really badly...

Enough of the serious stuff.

Been wondering recently what the hell do we(we being my friends) usually talk about. I just recorded a 2 minute sound clip on my phone and found out we really talk about anything, and everything crap or just downright retarded xD

I'm gonna upload it sometime soon if I can find some service which allows me to, but till then
Peace.

Hai!

Lawl, haven't been on MSN much lately as I've been too busy playing World of Warcraft (No life!) xD

I know I know I was supposed to quit but I got cold turkey so I went back to it ^^

Messed around a bit, did like, the final raid dungeon of Burning Crusade. PvP-ed, earned my Justicar title with my friend so here are some random screenie's


PvP-ing with Nick(right) and some random dude on my priest.


Que-ing up for the PvP event.


Wewt got my Justicar title!


Preparing for Brutallus


Brutallus downed!


Kalecgos, wiped at 11% health.


Kil'Jaeden... Yes, THE Kil'jaeden... Gonna finish next week ^^

So anywho, my weekend was wasted.

While daydreaming and reminiscing as I always do,I found out I had a serious flaw: I can't change for the better. Ever heard the saying "A leopard can't change its spots"? Well I found that rings true. It's this "I don't give a flying fuck" attitude which I can't shake off. Maybe a spur of the moment feeling will make me go 'yeah, I should change' but later it will just go off and I will revert back to my old self again. For example, Paris when I was like 12, nothing too major to me (or at least thats how I felt). I know its frickin Paris! But feelings like that started to seep in just weeks ago. 2 years post the trip! Likewise when I visited my aunt in London. I just didn't seem to care.

Well now I do and looking back, I feel pretty lucky having traveled to more places than your average person.

Then again, we can only feel feelings in extremities. Not too sure if you will get me but its like, you won't feel sadness until you feel true sadness, you won't feel happiness till you feel true happiness kinda philosophical-doo-dad. The grey area is just too easy to shrug off. That being the major flaw in us. This major factor contributes to stuff like taking drugs being that it messes with the head thus simulating what "true happiness" or bliss may be for that person. We ourselves are our greatest enemy.

You're pretty much boned from the day you were born, you have been pawned to the hands of society and the media which greatly influences us today. Some people are lucky, timing is right, born into something good, almost no bad influences, a good judge of morality etc. Its all built into your head, by the time you're older, those influences will be second nature.

My opinion is that there is no wrong nor there is a right. Its just public opinion and we belong to the majority. You can take a kid brought up with bad friends, junkies for parents etc and compare em to those high class well brought up kids. Both will have very different views on whats wrong and right. The one with a bad background will think what the "kid with a good background"'s morals are wrong and vice versa.

Well I'm just brainstorming and thinking here. And thats my opinion and I have every right to free speech so suck it! =p

Well looks like my head's done in. Way too tired now,
Ciao