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START -->Dan Jabbar's Profile  Create Your Badge Well I know what I've been told U gotta know just when to fold, But I can’t do this all on my own No I know, I’m no superman I’m no superman PROFILE Not simple but neither am I the wiser. I'm a hugger, everyone knows I am. Just 'that other foreigner' in Europe trying to find his way somehow, picking up a few things along the way. I love my peeps, I really do, I've been there for them, they've been there for me. I live by simple 'Eye for an Eye' rules. I'll do unto thou what thouest doeth unto me. A futile attempt at Shakespeare but worth a try. Blogging is a past time like any other, I'm an avid gamer but I try to balance it out with a fairly active social life. TWITTER Music
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Monday, September 29, 2008
Screw...  The picture was entirely random. Basically I can't post without a picture, dont'l know why... I began the day with a nice "Fucking hell...". Both the alarm and my phone was going off. Not too sure why particularly today but it apparently just sucks ass. Dad called like 5 minutes later telling me that its Hari Raya in like two days. Even though this wasn't my first one away from home, and no matter how messed up or dysfunctional my family members are, I still wanna go back, have those laughs. And that day usually reminds me of my closest friend. Known him since I was like 3, he lived like two doors down from me. Every year his dad would bring home a bunch of firecrackers for us to go crazy with. Lol once I remembered he brought this one which shot up into the air, sparks flying, you know. It was like 10 bucks a pop. So mom had a veeeery smart idea to light it and throw it instead of rooting in on the ground. We ran, saw it ignite and hit the house next to mind xD pretty comical really. Ah well, good times... I'm late now and I couldn't care less. This level of calmness isn't normal for me. Its like, the weight of the world is on my shoulders but I couldn't give a Damn. Yeah somethings changed. I just don't care for anything anymore. Ever had the thought where you wish everything is just gone? Like some sort of void space, its quiet, peaceful, etc. Just nothingness. I know this isn't like me but I just need some time to myself know? Whenever I sit down, open a book, anything that relaxes me, something comes up that very second and I have to get up and do it. Its frustratingly tiring and maybe thats what I am now. Just mentaly, physically, emotionally tired. Its like there's no remaining purpose for me at the end of the day. All I need is something or sometime to allow me to just think. I'm thinking of ditching school today but, I just can't... The old days of hanging in town while everybody else is stuck in school. Sitting on a bench in a fairly busy city while looking at your surroundings, its like those movies where this guy just sits there, while everything else is in fast motion. Well thats how I felt and it surprisingly put many things into perspective. I'm not making much sense and this wasn't how I wanted this post to be having dictated it a thousand times in my head. I guess going with the flow isn't so viable anymore eh? Well I hope not because thats what I excel at somehow. I'll blog more when I get the chance. Though I really can't be assed. Ciao. i tried to fly; 1:11 AM |
