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START -->Dan Jabbar's Profile  Create Your Badge Well I know what I've been told U gotta know just when to fold, But I can’t do this all on my own No I know, I’m no superman I’m no superman PROFILE Not simple but neither am I the wiser. I'm a hugger, everyone knows I am. Just 'that other foreigner' in Europe trying to find his way somehow, picking up a few things along the way. I love my peeps, I really do, I've been there for them, they've been there for me. I live by simple 'Eye for an Eye' rules. I'll do unto thou what thouest doeth unto me. A futile attempt at Shakespeare but worth a try. Blogging is a past time like any other, I'm an avid gamer but I try to balance it out with a fairly active social life. TWITTER Music
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Monday, September 29, 2008
Ruffle  A really depressing photo I know. Was passing by the library on the way to Starbucks and this graphic novel kinda enticed me. "Auschwitz" the title shares its name with one of the many infamous extermination camp during the Nazi' somewhat supremacy and quest for the master race: Arian. Its Hitler's apparent view of a perfect race and in order to achieve this, he planned to wipe out the other races. This action is called genocide. The novel began with this really morbid intro and the background being a destroyed tower: After the dawn of civilization, the Christians declared "If you remain Jews, you shall not live amongst us". In the Middle Ages, leaders decided "You shall no longer live amongst us." Finally, the Nazis decreed:"You shall no longer live". The novel containsmany philosophical messages. And as somewhat of an atheist, it allowed me to analyze it further without my thoughts and views being taboo. The persecution of Jews throughout history has led me to think about religion. Christianity teacher people to "Love one another". In my opinion, this is a delusion! To avoid another Auschwitz, we have to face up to the contradictions at the heart of human nature. It isn't utopian to think that we can "hate each other in peace". What I propose may seem rather drastic but its results from my deepest convictions. If you compare what religious programs say to the actual discourse that goes on in private within Muslim, Jewish, Christian communities, the contrast is so great that it makes any true brotherly love impossible! The story tells of the power religion has to seperate people. Members of each side think they own the truth, and they want to convince the other side that they are right. Thats what is so dangerous. Reading through that, I realized thats the best philosophical break down since ever! Well today went pretty good really. I went to town instead. Sat down and thought for a while, then decided to go to school as I don't wanna let my parents and peeps down. Missed a good bit of technology and business so those are gone, I'm fine. Its just that I was very tired this morning. The night before, I was up finishing this book that I borrowed. One of my flaws, I get easily addicted xD Anywho, gotta go, need rest for tomorrow Ciao! i tried to fly; 3:39 PM Screw...  The picture was entirely random. Basically I can't post without a picture, dont'l know why... I began the day with a nice "Fucking hell...". Both the alarm and my phone was going off. Not too sure why particularly today but it apparently just sucks ass. Dad called like 5 minutes later telling me that its Hari Raya in like two days. Even though this wasn't my first one away from home, and no matter how messed up or dysfunctional my family members are, I still wanna go back, have those laughs. And that day usually reminds me of my closest friend. Known him since I was like 3, he lived like two doors down from me. Every year his dad would bring home a bunch of firecrackers for us to go crazy with. Lol once I remembered he brought this one which shot up into the air, sparks flying, you know. It was like 10 bucks a pop. So mom had a veeeery smart idea to light it and throw it instead of rooting in on the ground. We ran, saw it ignite and hit the house next to mind xD pretty comical really. Ah well, good times... I'm late now and I couldn't care less. This level of calmness isn't normal for me. Its like, the weight of the world is on my shoulders but I couldn't give a Damn. Yeah somethings changed. I just don't care for anything anymore. Ever had the thought where you wish everything is just gone? Like some sort of void space, its quiet, peaceful, etc. Just nothingness. I know this isn't like me but I just need some time to myself know? Whenever I sit down, open a book, anything that relaxes me, something comes up that very second and I have to get up and do it. Its frustratingly tiring and maybe thats what I am now. Just mentaly, physically, emotionally tired. Its like there's no remaining purpose for me at the end of the day. All I need is something or sometime to allow me to just think. I'm thinking of ditching school today but, I just can't... The old days of hanging in town while everybody else is stuck in school. Sitting on a bench in a fairly busy city while looking at your surroundings, its like those movies where this guy just sits there, while everything else is in fast motion. Well thats how I felt and it surprisingly put many things into perspective. I'm not making much sense and this wasn't how I wanted this post to be having dictated it a thousand times in my head. I guess going with the flow isn't so viable anymore eh? Well I hope not because thats what I excel at somehow. I'll blog more when I get the chance. Though I really can't be assed. Ciao. i tried to fly; 1:11 AM Monday, September 22, 2008
 Salut peeps! Studying french after a hot shower at midnight doesn't prove to be a good idea... Well since I wouldn't have time to do so tomorrow morning, might as well do it now. Didn't mention I had a test tomorrow, and a french test at that! Geez we had one last friday and one first thing when we get back. I already did bad on the first one what makes her think I'd do better in the 2nd? Thats one of a few subjects I've given up on. Technicaly not really since I bucked up on my business and geography and it looks like I'm doing pretty good. Languages just aren't my thing... To elaborate on my previous post regarding the Joker, I'll give an example. A personal experiment. Instead of sticking to the plan(or scheme as that psychopatic genius calls it) of slacking during maths as usual then revising shit I don't understand. Got home, found out I couldn't figure it out myself, guess what, I PANICKED. When you panic, everything starts to go downhill. Lol, proving his theory at the cost of my academic progression... Ah well, peeps are helping me get back up. Since its the end of the weekends, I'm gonna commence blogging from my phone henceforth or till a computer is available. If you wanna tell the difference whether I'm blogging from my phone or the computer, just look at the layout. Phone is just usually one pic at the top(only allows one) and when I'm on the computer, its a small mess of pictures on irregular intervals. Well Anywho, gonna finish the quick revision and get some sleep. Au revoir! i tried to fly; 7:52 AM Sunday, September 21, 2008
Guess what came in the mail today! My frickin credit card! Well its on a fairly strict leash but works nonetheless xD Lookie   Ta-Dah...! Lol Iknowrite its awesome! The past week has been somewhat tiring, even though I did jack shit, I just felt my threshold for resisting sleepiness deteriorating. Like, Monday was fine, then Tuesday, it started to get me. Wednesday, I dozed off at like 9, Thursday, crashed on the table at 7, then on Friday, during school, I just crashed, woke up when it ended xD Lol had to thank Al and Nick for dragging me about and backing me up. Cmon, its Autumn now, progressing towards winter. Weather is just way too perfect for a nap.  I just randomly snapped that while blogging. Lol, Well thats how I blog, all too comfy, cappuccino and cake. Haven't really done much these days, just way too tired. Then again I gotta push myself to do so if I ever wanna get back. Though easier said than done, and at the rate this is going at, I highly doubt my return. Currently trying out my credit card after torrenting and watching the Dark Knight. Watching this for the third time, I realized the Joker's epiphanies or theories actually made some sense. It's the schemers that put you where you are. You were a schemer, you had plans, and uh, look where that got you. I just did what I do best. I took your little plan and I turned it on itself. Look what I did to this city with a few drums of gas and a couple of bullets. You know what I noticed? Nobody panics when things go according to plan. Even if the plan is horrifying. If tomorrow I tell the press that like a gang banger will get shot, or a truckload of soldiers will be blown up, nobody panics, because it's all, part of the plan. But when I say that one little old mayor will die, well then everyone loses their minds! Well its in bold. Everything that is planned out will go wrong somehow, and when it does, everyone panics. Now THATS why I "go with the flow". Anywho, I'm a little tired and its only like 5pm... Dude wtf... Ciao i tried to fly; 8:20 AM Sunday, September 14, 2008
Cookie Jar  Geez, its like 3 in the morning and I woke up. Maybe due to me not doing much for yesterday other than literally lying in bed all day somehow might be my body's way of trying to salvage whats left of the "day". Went down for the classic milk and cookies to make me sleep but alas doesn't work. Its cold, raining outside and its warm and snuggly inside, how the hell can I not sleep? Well blogging through my trusty phone and lifeline would be the only way to kill time aye? Don't know what I'd do without this thing. MSN, blogger, internet access to reply to tags, and also a phone... Close to perfection. Being awake at this hour oddly reminded me of the summer I spent in Singapore, going out till from 3 in the afternoon and end up talking and wandering around aimlessly with my close friend\s talking about anything and everything and hell that wasn't enough. I even remember me and cuzzy hanging around in orchard till 7am. Bonding ya know. Hmm, my cousin, a worthy subject to blog about. He's my bestest friend in the world and also family which is a really nice plus. You know those times when you have a really close friend and tell him\her "I wish you were my brother/sister", but this time it really is true. We hung out with each other since we were 2 and I'm a year older than him. I seem to excel him in everything that girls, thats somehow his area xD. Us going through hardships together strengthened our bond further. Well being 5k miles away it kinda sucks. The only bad thing is that he objectifies girls as that, not much depth when it comes to that at all and he is fairly immature but no ones perfect yeah? Lol looks like Nick can't sleep either. Just recieved his sms about what to bring tomorrow and stuff. Dear god I don't know what I'd be without him. Shit if not for him I would've not gotten into 3.1! Well Nick is Irish and he's the rare kinda type you know: not mentally retarded? Lol if you want me to be politically correct fine, mentally `challenged`... Dear god my breath stinks... Lol a good way to start a sentence. Then again, I was reading this book "Bringing Down the House" which was made into the movie "21". The starting line is "First... It began with sushi." lol, brilliant! Ugh I've been hating french classes even more recently. Just can't be assed to take a 3rd language! Cmon I already got malay and even that I'm not good at. Well i'm not proud of it but I just seem to suck at languages. I came to a conclusion that I'm not fluent in ANY language, lol! Kinda sucks eh? I'm not getting sleepy but I gotta pack my bag, prepare for school etc. Just, to all my peeps, I miss you guys! Apple as usual the most :p lol jk, no favourites really *fingers crossed* xD Peace out. i tried to fly; 8:11 PM Saturday, September 13, 2008
There's nothing better than chilling in your own room on a rainy day, sheets covering you, half a pizza and lukewarm coke eh? Haven't been able to blog recently due to the changed time-table of how my life should be run =. =": No computers during week days. Iknowrite sucks? Well I duped the key to my moms room which basically where the laptop is and use it. Stop before mom comes back and all's fine and dandy right? WRONG! She comes back on very irregular intervals. So I went back on working out. Dad came to visit Ireland since the last post. He arrived on the same day I did and apparently the same time xD Go figure! He left like 2 days ago so it gets pretty dull without him. Yesterday after "slacking"(after my usual work-out routines), I was about to close the drapes then I saw muscles! Huge I tell you! Lol, meh jk, though I wasn't expecting it, I'm pretty happy ^^ So I got into a very vain 30 seconds or a minute of snapping pics of myself xD    Hello ^^ Lol, well I'm a step towards getting rid of "those" as Apple calls em xD  Meh! I've gotten into graphic novels and pizza recently xD Spent about 30 euros on frozen pizza!  Now THATS how you tell a pizza is ready.  Frickin love the art  Thats how I chill, a bottle of cola and a bag of cookies ^^  Choco Pudding!  Fav pink cap  Peek-a-boo! Lol. Well to anyone that thinks I'm showing off, damn right I am ^^ Well I worked for it, so I pretty much deserve to do so. So... HAH! :p Going out more often I'm mostly sent by my mom and that 80s music station is like, fricking stuck in my head! Well, its the 80s, and maybe I've been brainwashed or something but I'm starting to find it catchy. Weird xD Was watching this show on MTV like 3 hours ago, was called Calum Best or something, but a quick synopsis, its about some dude living in cali, promised not to have sex for 50 days and 50 nights... Geez with chicks throwing themselves at you on a very explicit level would make me crack withing the first 2 seconds! Kudos to you calum... Thought of something philosophical to write about but now I'm just blank as usual, lol. Oh! Just got off the phone with dad annnnnnd, I might be going back this December if I do well in the Christmas tests! Woot! Well gotta study hard eh? Though...  Does this look like studying to you? Lol, me and Karl teamed up during free class to pelt a few peeps with really hard bread xD Well.... I just sat there with my feet on the table snapping pics while chatting to peep on msn through phone xD Aaaanywho, I'm gonna finish my chores, till next week I hope Ciao! i tried to fly; 9:45 AM Thursday, September 04, 2008
Herrow! Argh! Doing history project right now and its like 12 in the morn... Looks like someone's sleeping pattern is screwed xD Just received this e-mail from Amanda, old me, was like HOLYSHITWTF?!?!?! Dear god thats a really really huge difference. Lookie BEFORE:  AFTER:  God is this connection cheesing me off... Gonna upload pictures tomorrow if I can. Just too tired right now and can't waste time. Cya peeps! i tried to fly; 3:50 PM |
