Baby, sorry wasn't able to reply your message cos I've just got no cred. Just gimme a miss call if you want me on MSN and I'll come running ya?











Oh and it doesn't sound psycho. I find it REALLY REALLY sweet, I do the same too xD Sweet and better chicks out there? Its a possibility though you're my number 1 right now, in Ireland? Downright impossible! So don't worry yea? Things won't change, trust me on that, we can pick up where we left off when I get back ^^

Ily.

Herrow! Gah, fairly long no update. Just was out a fair bit here and there yaknow?

Got bored so I called Nick over to hang out. Chatted about stuffs till he left. Good luck with May yeah?

Went to Botanical Gardens the next day, hung out here and there, and the squirrels! Love those lil fekers. Was eating kit kat and this thing climbed up my jeans and I fed it some while it was on my shoulder xD Too cute! Dad scared it away!


Hi momo!
(Yes momo xD)

Dad!


Oh cmon quit eating momo!


Hey shouldn't the mom be the one pushing the pram? Oh cute!


The squirell!


Me and Dad, Woot almost his height!


Oh quit taking shots...


Just had to xD


Where's the tree gone?!?!

Random pics from here.











This flower looks soooo photoshopped!


This too!


Looked pretty cool, figured I took a snap.


Berry!


Iono, the shape was just plain interesting...


Hi Mr. Caterpillar!

That had to be pretty much the last pic I took before I headed home...

Got home, chatted a bit, then went to revise my business and geog. Can't! So I got sidetracked and messed a bit with the phone xD


Say hello to Stabby McStabStab!






Working on that "Miss U" thing xD

Well thats pretty much it, Gary is over at my place today so gotta entertain guests ya?

Ciao peepos

It's cold, raining, and I can't get my mind of stuff.

I picked up my phone, browsed through my contacts, called em up. Wait, it doesn't seem right does it? I looked out the window, where am I? 5000 miles away from the people I love dearly. Mere inches away from breaking down all over again. I really really miss you guys...

17th August 2008
I wanted to see my dear peepos before I go so I called em up.Met Qinx, Ke Ling and Amanda at CWP. Ke Ling baked COOKIES!!! Only liked the one with the jam one. Choco wasn't that nice, sowwie! ME and Qinx were munching em all up I LIKES! Then peaked into the plastic bag she brought: Fried rice! She's damn sweet la, so Qinx ate like 99% of it. Well wasn't hungry anyways. The fact that I'm leaving was hanging over me like a friggin disease. Didn't do well for my attitude throughout the day. Then met Aen and Defeng. Qinx keep calling him V-Neck leh. So he was a lil irritated then go talk to me instead xD Barely know the guy but we talk as if we know each other for ages... He's sweet! No really! Well he jokes a lot but he means well. Eventually went to Pastamania to grab a bite. Defeng kept shooting Qinx Apple, lol. Now its stuck to her but kinda fits don't it?

Not too sure where to go,we went to the 4th floor of Civic Centre to slack round. Daz came a while later because of family stuff. Discussed about it then he left with his friend while Ke Ling they all taking picks xD Aen barely knew em but got close pretty quick. Aiya qinx damn friendly de, reminds me of sec-1... BAstard-ing woot! Our personal thing ya?

Daz came later so did Yvonne. Those two... Geez there's a thing called oral communication, quit SMS-ing each other and just talk =. =" We hung out till everyone had to go. I was like veeeeerry close to crying, went away for a sec just to cool down a bit, then came back. Defeng went lor didn't say goodbye. Wait for him near the entrance there still no sign, so Aen and Vonne sent us to MRT, hugged goodbye and left. Was just damn quiet for the train journey la... No mood at all cos I kept on thinking: Withing 24 hours I'm gonna leave. And I'm leaving such awesome friends that sucked. Other personal matters filled my mind so I couldn't sleep for a really good while.

Got home, took a shower, then went out for a midnight walk. Its something I do to get my mind straight. Did a reality check and got my priorities straight. Went home and just crashed on the couch.


18th August 2008
Wanted to see Aen before I met the rest for a private convo but didn't go for it. Came late. Had to get a haircut, bought a bag, etc etc. I was pretty bummed out for not doing so. Ah well, met them at airport anyways.

Daz was being a dick half the time, got me waiting for like an hour when I told him to just head to T3 and meet everyone there at the same time. Geez I wanna spend as much time with them as possible. When they came, just put on a cheery face and talked. Wow, an hour left. That got me down even more. Snapped some pics here and there, then the leaving part came. Tried my best to fight back the tears but I just don't wanna leave. I wanted to dash out of the airport! Screw the already paid for ticket! I just can't bring myself to do it. The hugs goodbye made it worse. As I turned back, tears just streamed down and I was like wtf? Oh c'mon not now... Went through the gate, wave goodbye at em.

I don't know what got into me but as the plane was taxi-ing, I just let it all out. No one could see or hear me. I was looking outside the window and the screaming engines shrouded my silent sobs. Regrets rushed through me as there was nothing I can do. Cried myself to sleep even before the plane took off. I woke up when I arrived in Frankfurt. No dinner no nothing, I was starving but couldn't bring myself to eat anything.

I was assigned this really sweet escort. We talked about stuff, life, etc. She even bought me choco! Yeah, very sweet... Had to leave, said my thanks, boarded the plane to Dublin. Dad picked me up and I was just silent throughout the whole journey, Haven't said a word till now. Just utterly no mood.

I'm just gonna write a lil in response to you guys.

<3<3Xiaoyin: Please don't say such words. You were busy and I understand, thats why I didn't pester you to hang out with me as much as I did with other peeps. That night, I just figured I might talk to you since you recently blogged and thought you were awake, thats all. You were tired. You did not fail as anything, especially being my friend.
It's water under the bridge, no regrets, what's done is done. Heh, trust me, I won't change much next time. Maybe a teency bit taller, thats all. Even if I were to change, it would most probably be for the better so don't sweat it =)

<3<3Qinx/Apple: You are, the coolest person in my books, and also one of my closest (#2) friend, we had so much to say to each other but just didn't have the time to. Life has its suckiest moments but life isn't that all unfair, hidden in those moments there's a blessing that I was thankfull enough to figure it out myself. I hope you do in time.

<3Ke Ling<3: I just find you utterly sweet, like a big sister I wish I had. You're one person I can never get mad at, or will never succeed if I even try.

<3<3Amanda:We don't know each other that much but you're awesome nonetheless, you don't whack me now so thats a nice change xD We should try to fix that next time we meet ya?

Defeng: Can't put any hearts here xD we're guys ya. We only hung out like what? Twice? And we're already close.A very cool and caring person, the only thing in your mind is to help others by giving them the gift of laughter which I readily accept. You remind myself of the old me which I do miss dearly. Joking around endlessly but being serious when I have to.

<3<3<3Aen<3<3<3: Oh aen aen aen... I literally have so much to say to you and utterly disapointed we didn't have enough time to say it the way I'd like to: In person. I can see you have so much stuff going on in your life. But remember what I told you. I really care for you, thats why I worry. If I didn't care, I wouldn't ask in the first place. The fact that I'm in Ireland and I worry isn't an excuse to shut yourself away from me. Aen, I promise to never hurt you ever again. I never thought that I would be the one to hurt you, ever. I'm really glad you came, and those three words you actually said means the world to me. I love you too.

To all: I love you guys, I miss you guys so much it hurts whenever I think about y'all. Even though I'm like 5000 miles away, doesn't mean I can't be there for you.I am and always will, be there for you guys. I may not be there physically but I sure as hell am there in your hearts.

Ugh I can't stop crying right now. As usual my chimness fails me but the meaning is still the same.

Hope to see you guys soon, somehow, somewhere. Who knows where life takes you? Just go with the flow. The flow is not some stereotypical mindset but where your mind, body and soul guides you.

Peace

Heyyy!!! LOL at an internet cafe at like 3 bucks an hour...

So where was I...

Yeayeah! So it was after Dazri's birthday, and his super rich uncle came! Bought em hoodies and such. Nothing for me =( Lolol, well yeah, barely know him xD.

We went to Bugis for a goood while. Auntie spent like loads on watches and shit it's not even funny. Bought like umm... A BAZILLION WATCHES! Well overexaggerating but its close to that amount? No really. I was pissing myself laughing about the look on the salesmans face when auntie bought the whole bunch. Looks like someones getting a big check this month on commissions eh?

Then he brought us to KL like the day after. Hired a personal driver! Yeah he's rich I know I know... I faintly remember the conversation between Auntie and him (auntie being the planner and him being the spender xD)
Auntie: Okay the normal van is gonna cost like 1kSGD for the whole trip.
Uncle:No probs. Pick the most exp option available.
Auntie: Right, the merc which is like 2500 bucks.
Uncle: Sure thing.

Woke up the next day, went in the car half asleep and arrived KL around 5pm. Went to a sweet hotel, next thing I knew, uncles telling me to wait for many peeps to go into the lift then we go in. The prick wanted to flaunt his key to the presidential suite. LOL! Act chivalrous by asking the ladies what floor they were going to, pressed the corresponding buttons, then inserted his key for the presidential suite, turned around and gave em a wink... One word: PRO!!!

So me and Daz went to the gym for a sec then to the pool to chill. Poolside drinks and food were on Uncle! Woot! So yah, act rich here and there.

Went shopping in KLCC for a short bit. Wanted to buy my Billabong wallet but it was just too ex! F-U KLCC!!! Should've bought in Bugis but auntie say maybe Malaysia cheaper. Wrong! Well she treat us to some smoothies, can't remember what but it costed us like 13 RM a pop! Rich pricks...

Left Uncle to buy his PSP while we hung out at Manhattan Fish Market. De-lish kay!

Next day, went to the gym with Uncle, swam for a bit, then back to Singapore. Well first stop went to Malaysia. Headed to Jusco for a bit, then my place since its pretty near.

Oh the memories, rushed to my room and catapulted into my bed. Softieee beeed... Then looked through my old stuff. MSL crap only used for like 3 months which kinda explains its good condition. Can't be nothing but filled with regrets and what-ifs. What if I actually took my studies seriously? What if I didn't harass my teacher out of spite? Will I still be here? Well whats done is done ya? No point crying over spilt milk even though I did... So I took some of my stuff as memorandum(like my un-terminated Ez-Link card ^_^ no more getting jacked by fares!).

The house was is bad condition... Break in attempts and the weather alike has worsened the condition of it. So bad that I could cry. No really! Dad worked hard for it just to let the house fade into oblivion. Oh the drama =. ="

So I got sleepy, went back to SG. Uncle's friend took us for a late night drive in his ultimately sweet Porsche and we hung around in this Kopitiam. Uncles cool laa. Talked till it was like 3am++ then headed home.

Next day sent him to the airport, he had to go to geneva to check on his other companies. Sad!

Nothing much too significant happened after that, just stayed home, slacked, lazed around.

Hung out with qinx and Ke Ling they all dunno when. She treat me to Ice Kacang! Never had that in ages... THANK YOU QIN HUI!!! <3

Hung out with Ju Aen a fair bit too, watched the Dark Knight with her and Yvonne. Oh wait Wei Xiang too! Cool old perv. Don't bring your "I'm holy now. No more perv." Crap to me! I see through that curtain of deceit!=p Oh screw I love that old fucker...

Went to Jared's a while back. Hanging out like the good ol times. Known him since P1 so thats looong~! Shannon stayed over at his place, so did I. Then met Jason!!! Hah he's back from KL! Jason: Jared's elder bro. Damn cool. Then Kev was like wtf... Cute cute Ryan, blind and a tumor in his head yet he's so cheerful. He's been like that since I was like 6 and its just ultimately heartbreaking to see a lil kid in that state yet he's so optimistic. The kids got spirit, gotta love that lil guy ^_^. Went to Sharon's LAN Cafe. Ya, her dad owns it, cool eh? So she gave up some sorta free membership to that place and we played till like 4am? Got owned... Butbut, I met Serene!!! Changed a bit, and goddammit I don't have that astroboy look okay! Well maybe I did but I was just too damn tired and lazy to do it back up... Was forced to watch The Dark Knight again but Keith Ledger's performance never grows old. It's way beyond awesome. Rest In Peace dude...

The next day, LAN somemore, then headed home. Was pretty sad cos I only have less than two weeks left and I haven't met all the peeps I intended to meet.

And again now my mind is filled with further regrets and what-ifs. I'm gonna miss this place too much. Well, love you guys.

Peace