Started of the day with a sleepy start, didnt sleep cos was playin Runescape all night. Stopped playin at abt 6.00am so i can fake sleep for 30 mins b4 my parents wake up. While lying down, I kept on Pinching and slappin myself trying to keep myself awake. Then, the sleepyness kicked in, slept for abt 45 mins till my dad woke me up. Wow, didnt know i was that sleepy eh? Then i was sooo reluctant to get up, kept lying in bed closing my eyes and whenever i hear my dad coming, i act as if im waking up then when hes gone i just drop back into the soft comfort of my bed, ahhh..... But after doin that a few times, i was like, oh well, screw it, go to school then sleep later. Went to school with a really sleepy face and i slept during Irish class. LOL. NVM, i dont take irish so its a free 40 minute period for me. Then school ended and stuff, went home and just lay down on the bed letting my mind just wander around. Then thought about some stuff till it came to girls. I badly need some girl to hang out with as friends or be more than friends but, the girls i hang out with are older than me and some are just FUCKIN PERFECT but shes way older than me. Kinda bummed out about that. Thinkin about it just makes me feel kinda lonely here, at least over there i got lotsa sistas that are fun to hang out with but here, only 1 i consider as sis and she aknowledges it too. I go to an all boys school, waddya expect? Thinkin of changin to a mixed school where theres girls there and can make school time seem shorter so i can stare at them or admire their beauty while im bored. Thats what i did in p5, p6 anyway. You know when a guy holds a girl in his arms, he just has so many different emotions and sensations rushing throughout his body and in his mind thinking:"Man, this is MY girl! She is mine to take care off and i will do whatever it takes to keep her safe and happy!" and more things which i cant think of right now. But thats what goes through my mind when im holding a girl in my arms if shes more than my friend. I used to get that feeling a lot back home as i got someone special there but here, nth, cant get that feel anymore, no sense of loving someone or really caring for them, no more text messages every single minute and u will reply to her no matter what even ur hand phone is low on credit ull use ur house phone to call her, no more long calls and chats that would go deep into the night, theres no more of those things. Now i just cant stand this place anymore, so many girls that may look hot but on the inside shes no more shallower than my bath-tub. They dress too complicatedly and stuff, what im thinking is a nice simple hot girl that has good morals and doesnt smoke, drink, or have any other bad habits. Those girls are hard to come by here. Example, i saw one in a food store that day, thot she was alone, so i purpousely walked to and fro the isle just to catch a glimpse of her face. when i finally decided i would ask her out, her parens appeared out of nowhere and i just pretended to look inerested at something which is near her. Bummer, her parents were there. Man i miss home so much. Every single day id think abt what to do on the first day i visit there, thinkin abt it makes me yearn for it more and makes the days seem so long. Other than the rare parties every once a month or once in two months, nth else was more interestin. I just go to town alone lookin at stuff(usually games) or looking at girls that happen to pass by. Every now and then i see one really cute couple hand in hand talkin to each other leaving a tinge of jealousy in me, jealousy is a sin rite? i guess it is, O'Lord forgive me. This little voice within me says, why cant i have something like that to treasure? So i just sit there drinkin some cold coffee walking around with nth much to do. Maybe eventually invitin some dudes to join me. What can i do in this oh so boring place. Ive been to town, seen almost every shop, what else is there? Theres no small town with flashy lights like Orchard Road in Singapore, no cool shopping centres every few kilometres except for small shops, and thats abt it. So now i just lie down thinkin of stuff yet agn and decided to blog all these down, i feel like i have been hit by a mild sedative, gettin sleepier and sleepier as time passes, did all my homework in school already so im literaly free. Just cant wait till Halloween holidays. Days of resting. Or maybe if i feel a bit childish then i might go trick or treatin with some of the little dudes takin care of em and gettin some candy for the sweet tooth in me ^^.Im thinkin of adding more but maybe not, kinda sleepy already, gotta pack my bags and stuff for school tomorrow. Maybe ill add more in another post tomorrow.Oh well, kinda gtg.Bye dude, sistas, friends, LOVE YA

Dan